At one of Jon’s readings a woman came up to me and said she would like to see more of my work. I told her about my website and she said “Oh, I’ve been on your site, but it’s not like Jon’s”. At another point in my life (or on another day) I would have been offended, but I was able to say with confidence exactly how I felt, “Well, of course it’s not like Jon’s, it’s MY website”.
I have to admit, I’ve had my fears about about missing my work and loosing myself in “Jon’s world”. I’ve done this before. I allowed myself to get absorbed in my first husbands life to the point where I lost my sense of self. It’s something I’m very conscious of.
So before the book tour began, with the help of a counselor and Jon’s support, I devised a plan to keep help keep me grounded and centered. I would do small and consistent amounts of meditating. I would do at least 10 minutes of yoga a day and I would sketch and continue to blog. Lastly, I would not feel guilty if I did none of these things.
So far, I’ve been doing okay. The train ride to DC gave me lots of free time to do all these , but driving long hours the past 2 days with book events inbetween left me too tired to do much at the end of the day. But I didn’t beat myself up about it.
So this morning I had some free time with the energy and enthusiasm to do some sketching and blogging. Doing my own work grounds me in ways I don’t quite understand, but I always feel better afterwards. So I’m ready for the day ahead and will deal with tomorrow, tomorrow.