It’s been a while since I made a streaming pillow, so this morning I looked and saw that Pat was next on my list. In her email, Pat mentioned that she was considering the next chapter in her life.
When I make a piece that someone has asked for, I know that I need to be able to connect with them or what they are asking for, if the piece is going to work. Pat wasn’t specific, she really just wanted a pillow, but the few words she wrote were just enough to pull up the part of me that is always looking for the next step. The next issue to deal with, the next creative move.
Specifically I was thinking of the fear that comes when ever I have some success. This week it was the heart potholders. I had no idea so many people would want one and honestly, all those emails from people asking for them, scared the shit out of me. “Why?” Nancy asked me over tea on Tuesday morning. I couldn’t answer her, I don’t know what I’m afraid of. I know it’s a good thing, so why the fear? Nancy suggested tapping on it. Good idea, tapping works for me. I’m ready to let go of the fear that comes when something good happens. That will be my mantra as I tap the different points on my body to release the stuck energy. But here it is Friday and I still haven’t tried to tap that old fear away. I have good excuses, lots of potholders to make, I’m too tired, I have to feed the animals, etc. etc. I guess there’s something comfortable in the familiar, even if it’s painful. As I recently heard a life long believer in Hell say, “When you believe in Hell your whole life, it’s hard to give it up.”
So this is where I went to connect with Pat, in her desire to move on, and this is the pillow that came out of it. I’m not quite sure how it all worked, but I think it did.
Let the Question Open the Door
I Know what My Heart Wants
Losing My Faith in fear
My Song is unique and Powerful