Yesterday there was a comment on my blog written by a woman who made some assumptions about me and my life and my work. Her words were angry and they were certainly jarring. I mostly get supportive comments,(there have been some inappropriate comments which I just delete) but I know there are people out there who feel differently and I’ve wondered why I haven’t heard more from them.
So it was unexpected, but I wasn’t surprised. As I read it my heart started to race and I thought, “here we go.” But I think I was surprised by my reaction and I felt, as my yoga instructor says, that it came because I was ready for it. Even a couple of month ago I would have reacted differently and a six months ago I was actually believing some of the things she said.
I knew right away that I wanted to post her comment and respond to it without being defensive or combative. But I also felt like I wanted to explore the issue more, because as I wrote in Fridays blog, this is my work and knowing myself and communicating with my readers is a part of that.
I think mostly it has been a gift. It has allowed me to see how I’ve evolved. I no longer suffer with those questions of independence and what I do and don’t deserve in life. I’m learning to trust my work and my business to be as successful as I chose to make it. And I’m actually doing things to make that happen, things that I was afraid to do in the past, like embracing technology, experimenting with new mediums, hiring a bookkeeper, and figuring out facebook. Each time I face a fear I become more confident. I’m not even as worried as I used to be about what people think of me. So keep the comments coming, there’s a gift in them all.