This afternoon, I went inside my new studio for the first time. Well, it’s not really mine yet, but it will be as soon as we buy Florence’s house at the end of July. Until today, the building that will be my studio, was so filled with furniture and stuff, you couldn’t even walk into it. There was actually the wood paneling and bars that made up the tellers windows from an old bank inside it. This and almost everything else was removed from my studio and Florence’s house and barn, and auctioned off on the premises today. It was strange being there with hundreds of people walking through the house and I was feeling territorial, protective of the place. I was so uncomfortable I fled to the back of the barn to be with Rocky. He seemed a bit nervous himself, circling around and not standing still long enough for me to brush him. So I waited and soon he came to me and we stood for about a half hour. Me stroking his neck and back, calming us both.
Once the auction started Jon was off taking pictures and I stood in the back , next to the giant birch tree with Florence’s Granddaughter. Needless to say, the whole thing was was even stranger for her than for me. Jon got his blue lamp and we also bought a painting of waterlilies that was done by Florence’s sister (or sister-in-law, not quite sure which, it is a family of artists).
We left around 2:30 thinking we got what we wanted but it didn’t feel right being home, we wanted to be at the new house. So we went back and that’s when Florence’s Granddaughter told us that, the building that would be my studio, was mostly cleaned out and we could go inside.
I had peeked in the windows, so I had an idea of what it looked like, but walking through the doorway for the first time, well, it felt very familiar. The walls are paneled with wainscot, the wood, dark with age, but the space didn’t seem dark. I could see how bright it would be once I took the curtains off the four big windows on the south side and put in ceiling lights. The space was simply mine. Was it so familiar because I would spend so much time there? My mind went to what I needed to do to make it habitable, Insulation, a ceiling, heat and electricity, but my body was experiencing the feeling of belonging.