In my dream the alligators were made of wood, painted a well worn green and standing upright on their hind legs. They were in a circle and moving up and down like carousel horses. The dream was a reminder of an experience I had during my Soul Retrieval that I had forgotten.
It was simple but powerful. At some point during the ceremony, I saw an alligator slide into my body, they same way they slide off a riverbank into the water. It easily fit inside of me, a glowing yellowish green light. It wasn’t scary, it was actually so matter of fact, that I forgot all about it, until the dream I had the next morning. Even when I first remembered it, it seemed almost incidental. But as each day passed, I could see more clearly how important the vision really was.
I looked up the symbolism of the alligator. I found it represents maternal protection, the ability to survive, and primal energy. I took it as strength and protection. I imagined the alligator taking up the space in my body stretching between my sternum and bellybutton. The place that felt solid and confident when I spoke to Carol (the Shaman) about the idea of deserving respect and loving kindness. I saw it like a tattoo on my body and above the alligator, at my heart, a sun/flower. My heart as open and expansive as the strength of the alligator.
This afternoon, I used my sewing machine to draw this symbol of a strong center and an open heart. This piece is not for sale, it’s for me. A reminder of my ability to protect myself and be open and loving at the same time.