A Pony and a puppy! Once I had a dream I was eating an ice cream cone and holding a kitten. A dream for sure, I still smile when I think of it. And now it turns out we’re getting a pony and a puppy. In my opinion, that’s right up there with ice cream and kittens. Only it’s real, like a dream come true.
Until the reality of it all started to sink in. Which I have to say didn’t take long. My first thought was it’s too good to be true. Tell me, I said to Jon, that something doesn’t have to go wrong. Done with the old superstitions, I then went on to what I thought was the practical part of it. I won’t have enough time to spend with them both and all the other animals and do my work and blah blah blah. Okay, so this is one of my great neurosis. That I don’t have enough time.
When I spoke to Karen, the puppy’s breeder on the phone, the first thing I said to her is, This is a miracle. I was talking about the way it all fell into place. How Jon emailed Karen just as she got off the phone with her friend who decided it wasn’t the right time for her to take the puppy. And how the moment I saw the photo of Fate (yes, that’s her name, argue with that), with that black patch over her brown eye and the other eye blue, I knew she was ours. Because she already looks familiar to me. Like I’ve known her a long time.
It’s not as if I’m not taking responsibility for my part in the decision, I am. I have no doubt this is the right puppy for us and we’re the right people for her. But I’m also allowing for the part that I don’t have control over. I’m trusting that this is the perfect time for us to be getting not just my pony Chloe, but Fate too. And that somehow getting them at the same time is going to bring with it something (besides learning how to have a horse and training a puppy at the same time) I don’t yet understand.
I guess what I’m saying is, I’m saying yes and trusting life. I mean, if a single mom can have a full time job and raise some happy and healthy kids (which happens, I’ve seen it) I can certainly get a pony and a puppy at the same time and do well by us all.
I’m also thinking that the combination of pony and puppy will keep the lessons I most need to learn in my face. Things like patience, and being able to be the leader, being clear and not reacting out of guilt or my own issues. And then there’s all the stuff I haven’t even thought of yet. So we’ll all be learning together.
The other part of it is that I have Jon, who has raised and trained so many great dogs. It’s going to be fun doing this with him. I keep thinking, We’re going to have a puppy together, probably the closest we’ll come to having a kid together. I’m looking forward to seeing how well we do and where the differences come. There’s a touch of anxiety in it all, but mostly excitement.
A pony and a puppy, imagine that!