I don’t remember when or how I first heard about the poet Mary Oliver.
I do remember sitting in my friend Kathy’s house on Long Island, reading one of her poems out loud and crying. Kathy had given me the book for my birthday. That was in the early 1990’s and over the years we would exchange her poetry books on birthdays and holidays.
Back then, Mary Oliver’s poems spoke to the loneliness and longing in me. They touched the hidden part of myself, that I didn’t even know was there. They reminded me of what and who I wanted to be, but didn’t have to courage or awareness to realize.
Two weeks ago, driving home from my Bellydancing class, I called Jon and he told me that Mary Oliver had died.
I thought how I didn’t know Mary Oliver, the person, but that I knew her poems. And I’ll have them no matter where she happens to be, in this world or another. I thought the she lived a good, creative and long life. I thought that her death really wouldn’t affect my life.
But still I cried.
Mary Oliver’s poems have been a part of my life for such a long time. And I’ve grown with them.
I no longer feel the “…loneliness and its consequences: longing and hope” from her poem “The Snow Cricket”.
And though the sense of wanting to belong, wanting to be loved for who I am,is not as desperate as it used to be, it still pulls at me when I read “Wild Geese.”
“You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves”
But I did eventually “reach for the latch” put on my coat and leave my desk, As Mary Oliver commands in her poem “Have You Ever Tried to Enter the Long Black Branches.”
“To put one’s foot into the door of the grass, which is
the mystery, which is death as well as life, and
not be afraid!”
I was afraid, but I did it anyway.
I found the courage to “let the immeasurable come. Let the unknowable touch the buckle of my spine.” as Mary Oliver pronounces in “Little Summer Poem Touching the Subject of Faith.”
But her poems didn’t just touch me when I was reading them. They entered my everyday life.
Every time I pick flowers from the garden, put them in a vase and “let them take their own choice of position” There is Mary Oliver’s poem “Freshen the Flowers, She Said“.
When I walk in the woods I am reminded that walking and observing was her work and it is a part of my work too.
When I got home from Bellydancing that night, Jon and I lit a candle and read our favorite Mary Oliver poems to each other. For me, it was like taking a walk thought my life. And when I got to “Mornings At Blackwater”, I cried, as I still always do when I read it.
This was the poem of transition for me. The one that speaks directly to my awakening. And the actions that I took and continue to take to evolve into the person I truly am.
“So come to the pond,
or the river of your imagination,
or the harbor of your longing,
and put your lips to the world.
I went to the harbor of my longing and continue to go the river of my imagination and I’m finally living my life.
Mary Oliver’s words are as alive to me as they ever were. I can go back to her books that I’m sure I’ve read from cover to cover, even more than once, and discover a poem as if I’ve never heard it before. And there are many I have never read. Mary Oliver gave us enough words, ideas, observations and feelings to fill infinite lifetimes.
That night, as I was looking for the poems I wanted to read to Jon, I came upon one that spoke directly to who and where I am now.
If I ever read it before I guess it wasn’t at the right time for me to hear it, because I didn’t remember it. It’s called When I Am Among The Trees. And it makes me believe that there will always be another Mary Oliver poem for me.
When I Am Among The Trees By Mary Oliver
When I am among the trees,
especially the willows and the honey locust,
equally the beech, the oaks, and the pines,
they give off such hints of gladness.
I would almost say that they save me, and daily.
I am so distant from the hope of myself,
in which I have goodness, and discernment,
and never hurry through the world
but walk slowly, and bow often.
Around me the trees stir in their leaves
and call out, “Stay awhile.”
The light flows from their branches.
And they call again, “It’s simple,”
they say, “and you, too, have come
into the world to do this, to go easy,
to be filled with light, and to shine.
11 thoughts on “There Will Always Be Another Mary Oliver Poem”
Thank you Maria. Her passing into The Light, has left us the gift of hearing and finding her poetry in so many places, over and over again throughout the day!
It’s so true Susan.
Great photo. Even captures birds in flight.
Yes, I was surprised to see the two of them once I looked at the photo.
Love your comments on Mary Oliver and her amazing poetry.
I thought your photo of the bird feeder with the birds in flight absolutely perfect!
It is a stunning photo and so appropriate to the subject.
Thank you for posting,
Thanks Jan. I thought the photo was just right too.
I share your sorrow about Mary Oliver, Maria. Along with Jane Kenyon, Oliver had this way of finding the spiritual in the every day. Her later writings, particularly in Upstream, had a spare, essential wisdom that I find compelling. And I loved her fearlessness. At a reading she gave many years ago in Provincetown, she shared a story of finding her way to Edna St. Vincent Millay’s home, Steepletop, where she lived and worked alongside Millay’s sister, Norma, and which she also wrote about in Blue Pastures. What came through to me was the profound way in which Oliver stilled her being in order to observe, and then found a way to write about those observations. I loved her work and her singular devotion to it. She had been very sick, but I was shocked by the news even so.
I didn’t know all of those things about Mary Oliver Tara. I agree with her similarity with Jane Kenyon. I came to know both their work at around the same time in my life. Her devotion to her work is inspiring and as is her insight to the power of stillness.
That was so splendid, thank you so much, just what i needed this morning, xox
Maria, Thank you so much for your thoughts and writing on Mary Oliver. I have loved her work for so long. Of course, upon hearing of her death I sat reading from one of her books, all of my favorites. Rediscovering them all over again and remembering how grateful I am that she existed, that I can still read her work now that she has moved on.
I wonder how many people are rereading Mary Oliver’s poems now Terri. They and she do live on.