I called her Zin Zin as soon as I picked her up and started talking to her.
I know it’s going to stick. I loved holding her, but I didn’t feel the connection to our new puppy Zinnia that Jon did.
Yet, I know how he feels. That need for his dog. I felt the same before we got Fate, when I didn’t have a dog to keep me company in my studio and on walks in the woods.
I think mostly I still have a part of myself closed off to her. I’m not ready to give myself over yet, not until we actually take her home and I know for sure she’s ours.
It was probably losing our Boston Terrier Gus when he wasn’t even a year old that makes me feel protective of myself. But at this point, I don’t think it really matters.
What does matter is that when we take Zinnia home in three weeks, I’ll be ready for her. I know, once she comes into our lives for real, I’ll be able to give her all the love I have.