I did yell at Jon, as he said I would when I first read his blog post suggesting that people send me a blog donation for my birthday. Then I cried.
It could have been a strange and uncomfortable thing to do if Jon didn’t do it in such a sweet and honest way. I know it came from the most thoughtful place and is something he believes strongly in.
Along with yelling and crying, I also let him know how much I appreciated what he did.
And I have to admit, I am overwhelmed by all the donations and the lovely messages that came along with them, or by themselves.
So thank you all for your support in all the different ways it came to me.
I do believe I have some thinking to do about it. I make an effort to face up to the parts of me that I’m not so happy with and would like to change. But I don’t give as much attention to the things I like about myself. I don’t acknowledge as much those things I do well.
It comes back to that well-worn issue of self-worth. I do believe that inside all of us, even if it is partially or well hidden, the truth about our worthiness lives unscathed by the forces that made us doubt it to begin with.
It’s a part of myself I’ve been unearthing.
The support that all of you have shown me, not only in the past couple of days but in the years since I first created my blog and began working as an artist, has awakened me to the truth that there are many people who see something in me that I haven’t completely accepted about myself.
Jon thought these past two days would force me to acknowledge the value of me and my work in a way I haven’t before. I’m not quite there yet, but I’m going to take some time and seriously consider it.
Happy belated birthday,Maria. I just wanted to say thank you for allowing us to have a glimpse into your life, to share your joys & sorrows, and for all the wonderful creative inspiration you give. I hope your birthdays marvelous, and that you have many more ahead of you!
Ruger the Aussie says you should be sure to grab a ball or other toy & play for awhile each day. He says it makes every day just a little bit better!
Thanks again, from California.
Thank you for being there to take part in it, Margaret. Ruger has good advice!:)
People can be their our own worst enemies, sometimes. Never forget that you are a wonderful, creative person who has brought a lot of joy to Jon, to animals (and they well know the worth of persons), to your friends and to a lot of appreciative blog readers. You’re brought a lot of beauty to this world by your smile, your fabric art, your hard work, just by being. Thank you so much.
. I decided at one point in my life that I wanted to bring beauty into the world so I appreciate your seeing it Kaaren.
I have just finished an 18 month program focused on finding my “True Self”. Someone asked me recently to define “True Self” and “False Self”. I had to think about it for a very long time…but eventually I was able to say. “My True Self always says “I love every bit of you”. My false self says “If only you…..”
It is a great delight to read you as your True Self speaks in an ever stronger voice!
Susan
That’s a great distincition Susan. Sounds like an intense program. I’m going to benefit from your hard work. Thank you.