There were a few things I wanted to change about my costume after our dress rehearsal last night in Bellydancing class. So this afternoon I dressed up adding some things and changing others.
Now I feel confident with my outfit and will be ready to get into it tomorrow morning.
I still have to try out the makeup. I got some more makeup this morning after talking to some of the women in my class last night. They gave me tips about things like how to keep the makeup from running when I get sweaty.
I’m thinking of dancing tomorrow as a kind of exorcism, as a way of dancing my old body image away. Somehow, that idea helps keep me from getting too nervous.
But I’m also thinking about the women I’m dancing with. This has less to do with me and more to do with us dancing together. That’s the miracle of bellydancing for me, the way we need and depend on each other to dance. We can’t do it alone. And I’m looking forward to being a part of that.
I’m going to go and work on my make up now. I’ll keep doing it till I’m comfortable with it. Till I feel confident that tomorrow morning I’ll be able to wake up, get dressed, put on my makeup and feel good about it all as I drive into Bennington Vermont.
Jon will be taking some pictures and video, so I’ll write all about it and post some pictures on Sunday.
I’ll be dancing with the Bennington Beledi Tribal Bellydancers tomorrow at the Bennington Farmers Market in Bennington Vermont from 10am-1pm.