A few weeks ago I began a healing drumming class. It immediately opened something up inside of me. I couldn’t stop crying in class and became very anxious out of class. I felt such an old sense of vulnerability I thought about dropping the class. It was taking me to a place I didn’t want to go. But, of course, that’s why I was there. I may procrastinate, but I’ve come too far to stop now.
The anxiety finally got so bad I couldn’t stand it anymore. So I went to see Mary Muncil, my spiritual counselor. She guided me through a visualization that put me face to face with a very old fear. The little girl I met there, took back her power and drummed her way to safety.
When I began this streaming piece I had no idea what it was about. But now I know I was telling myself to open my heart and step through the threshold,( just the opposite of my original impulse.) The girl standing on the drum came after my realization. She now occupies that place where fear and vulnerability were for so long. I have a feeling she may show up again.
“Stand in the light of your soul, there’s an ocean in my heart, trust the beat of your heart.” This is my latest wall hanging for Gallery 99.