When we got to Treasure’s all three horses were standing behind the barn together. Chloe is no longer leader of the herd as she was on Bedlam Farm. She has a different relationship with Queenie and Mick than she had with the donkeys and sheep and it’s going to take her a while to adjust to it. I imagine she’s working on figuring it all out.
That’s the feeling I got from her. That she’s in a new reality now and that’s a space I’m not a part of. So when she gave me a kiss and I gave her a cookie, it wasn’t the same as at the farm. I could feel a disconnect as if she was already adjusting her consciousness to deal with her new reality.
It cried when I left her today. A part of me kept thinking that she should be at “home” meaning Bedlam Farm. I didn’t see the spirited, feisty pony I’m used to. That was hard. Jon said it’s like leaving your kid at camp.
I keep telling myself the truth that I know. That it will take time for Chloe to adjust to her new home. I’ve done my part, making the decision that I believe is best for Chloe. Chloe’s doing her part and Treasure and Donna and their horses are doing their part.
I also believe there’s another part to this story. The part no one can know. I think of it as making space for mystery, for the unknown. I’m holding space for the Universe to do it’s work, whatever it may be.
Giving Chloe a new home, is sad and feels good at the same time. I’ve never given a horse away before, but from other life experiences, I imagine this adjustment period is the hardest part.
Oh Maria, this has got to be the hardest part. Maybe you should give it a little more time before you visit again. Make space for the mystery to unfold a bit. She, like you is in transition. xoxo
I was thinking the same thing Cindy. Good idea.
I think Chloe is adjusting to the different energy at her new farm. Chloe is in horse rhythm now. With sheep and dogs she had to think and react differently than with horses.
She will always enjoy visits from you and Jon. But, she is showing you that you made a good choice; enabling her to be with horse friends.
I think you’re right Holly. Horse rhythm sounds just it.
I’ve been in your shoes before. It was a very difficult, albeit good decision. Once home and walking the pasture, I cried, missing my boy. I went to visit him too soon and left feeling off. I waited a few weeks before returning and saw how happily he adjusted. Leaving Chloe in loving hands will mean success, you just have to give it time. I think she’ll thrive with other horses around.
I think you’re right Deborah.