When we got to Treasure’s all three horses were standing behind the barn together. Chloe is no longer leader of the herd as she was on Bedlam Farm. She has a different relationship with Queenie and Mick than she had with the donkeys and sheep and it’s going to take her a while to adjust to it. I imagine she’s working on figuring it all out.
That’s the feeling I got from her. That she’s in a new reality now and that’s a space I’m not a part of. So when she gave me a kiss and I gave her a cookie, it wasn’t the same as at the farm. I could feel a disconnect as if she was already adjusting her consciousness to deal with her new reality.
It cried when I left her today. A part of me kept thinking that she should be at “home” meaning Bedlam Farm. I didn’t see the spirited, feisty pony I’m used to. That was hard. Jon said it’s like leaving your kid at camp.
I keep telling myself the truth that I know. That it will take time for Chloe to adjust to her new home. I’ve done my part, making the decision that I believe is best for Chloe. Chloe’s doing her part and Treasure and Donna and their horses are doing their part.
I also believe there’s another part to this story. The part no one can know. I think of it as making space for mystery, for the unknown. I’m holding space for the Universe to do it’s work, whatever it may be.
Giving Chloe a new home, is sad and feels good at the same time. I’ve never given a horse away before, but from other life experiences, I imagine this adjustment period is the hardest part.