Creative Conference At Pompanuck

I don’t know how Jon does it.  All those eyes looking at him.  I “taught” a workshop at the Creative Conference today.   It went on all day long at Pompanuck with photographers and poets and musicians teaching workshops.  There was a  feeling of people who really want to be together not only through their creative connections but through the personal connections they’ve made on-line.

When my turn came to teach I found myself covered in sweat.  I love talking about my work and I had no problem doing a demo of my free motion sewing ( I could do that all day)   but all those people standing around looking at me,  makes me really uncomfortable.  I enjoy the one on one conversations but I don’t like the feeling of being on stage.  I forgot to say half the things I wanted to say and when I do have something to say, I find it hard to articulate.  I just get nervous.

I remembered today  how when I was teaching sculpture as a grad student, I would take off my glasses when I stood in front of the room so I couldn’t see everyone looking at me.  But as uncomfortable as I was, I’m still glad I did it.  It’s good to know what I want to do and what I don’t want to do.  And now I know.  I could do it with five people maybe, but  forty eyes are just too many.

Looking forward to the Open House tomorrow.  Still have some last minute things to do, but by now I know, I’ll either get them done or I won’t.  And whatever happens it will be okay.