I woke up anxious, between the holidays and the rise of covid once again, I lost myself a bit.
I know the best way to get back to myself is to go inward. Meditation, doing nothing, is the most effective and most difficult for me to do. But when I do, when I really commit to it, it always helps.
I also tell myself the facts about what I’m feeling. This is something I learned to do in therapy. It helps because my anxiety isn’t based in reality. The fear and danger I feel come from another time and place.
Once I was feeling more grounded, which took about a half-hour, I put on a Tibetan Singing Bowl Meditation and finished tacking my quilt “November Snow”.
I had a phone date with my friend Mandy for lunch. I did the drawing above of the things I saw in front of me while we talked. Later Emily and I had a zoom studio chat. Although neither of us had much to show the other.
It seems to me that all three of us are feeling the winding down of days as winter approaches.