For the first time in a couple of years the branches from the Maple that fell are no longer in a pile on the hill in the barnyard.
I burned most of them in my Birthday Bonfire. The few that are left I’ll use in our Spring Equinox bonfire.
Now there are only a few small sticks were the tree limbs used to lay. In the past I would have been in a hurry to clear the branches from the barnyard. But I’m learning patience when it come to getting things done.
I could spend all day every day fixing and cleaning things up around the house and farm.
But then, of course, I’d never get my work done. And I need to work, not only because it’s how I earn a living, but when I don’t create I’m not fulfilled or happy in my life.
So I choose to let some things lay where they are for days, weeks, months and even years at a time.
Cutting and stacking those branches when they first fell would have been a lot of work. Over the past couple of years, the sheep and donkeys ate all the bark off of them. They are so dry they easily snapped in two and burned hot on the fire.
Now when I look at the paint peeling on the farm house, the dried mud from our boots on the kitchen floor, the cracked glass in the old windows, I bristle for a moment then walk away. I leave it for another hour, another day.
Walking in the same woods regularly and noticing the changes that occur from one day to the next has gotten me used to the idea of things not staying the same. I hardly expect it anymore although I’m still often thrown off for a while when it happens.
In the woods, those changes that come with a strong wind, heavy snow, lots of rain or none at all, are quickly incorporated into their surroundings. Water fills the impression made by the upturned tree roots and soon insects and frogs live there. The leaves on fallen trees still sprout bringing the sky to the ground.
And in time, with patience, death always brings new life.
Am I procrastinating or waiting for the right moment? Maybe I have just learned to trust my own instincts to know when something needs to be done and when it can wait.