I came home from Madison inspired and on fire to try something new.
At dinner the first night, I sat next to author Susan Campbell Bartoletti. She was getting an award for her book Naamah and the Ark at Night, and it was our conversation that got me going. We talked going to the next step creatively or in life and about moving through the fear that otherwise keeps us in the same place. And somehow, this was the conversation that made me truly understand that idea. That this process is what life is.
It’s always scary (sometimes more scary than others) for me to do something new or take the next step. So now I know… I want to do something new, I get scared, I do it, then I can move on to the next new thing. It sounds simplistic, but I don’t know any other way to describe it. I used to think there would be a time when I wouldn’t be so afraid to try something new, but now I believe the fear is part of the experience. It’s how I know I’m doing something important and moving forward. I also know that that fear and excitement often feel the same in my body, so maybe when I start to feel fear, I can begin to think about it as excitement instead.
After dinner Susan sent me a link to Teesha Moore’s website. I was inspired. Suddenly I could see myself making fabric collages like I’ve thought of, but for some reason, was never able to do before. Although I couldn’t see exactly what they would look like, I could imagine making them.
So this morning I went at it. Not sure what I was doing, not afraid to make mistakes. My mind tried to stop me by saying I had to have some rules, some boundaries, and I agreed and tried to ignore it at the same time.
And these are the pieces I came up with. I have to say, I’m still excited and can’t wait to try more.