Something Has Broken Off Inside of Me

June 20th, 2018


Something has broken off inside of me

I can feel it rattling around when I move

like the last penny in the piggy bank,
it keeps getting caught

It’s pale blue or hospital green
an inch or two square

but not perfectly square

Hard like a paint chip still attached to rusting metal
it clanks though my body
rolling chaotically on its corners

getting snagged on a rib, as if I’m hollow inside

It’s old and wants to get out

but I can’t imaging that happening,
not without a lot of pain

Those corners scare me

Maybe if I keep moving
I can smooth out the edges,
like glass tumbled by the sea

Make it less dangerous


even if it’s always there,
if it never gets out

It won’t matter as much.

Holding Hands

June 19th, 2018

Too Cool

June 19th, 2018

It was one of those special nights in our little Upstate NY Town of Cambridge.

Ed Green, a retired music teacher from the High School got together with some fellow musicians and played a couple of hours of Jazz at the Round House Cafe.

We met my friend Athena there and as I drank a glass of wine I pulled some threads from the tassle on my dress and spelled out the words Too Cool.  

It really was a very cool evening.

A Toad In Every Bedlam Farm Garden

June 19th, 2018


Minnie sitting on the wall by one of the Wildflower gardens

We have a  toad that hangs out on our back porch every year.

I’m sure  she lives in our garden and hibernates there in the winter, digging herself a warm bed under the ground.  This fall I’ll be sure to leave her a blanket of dead leaves to help her  feel safe.

She was out again last night, hanging out with the cats and ignored by the dogs. They all accept her as just another animal on Bedlam Farm.

I’ve read that toads are a sign of a healthy garden.  That they like wild areas with native flowers.

Now I’m thinking of making our gardens even more toad friendly.

Maybe putting out an invitation in the form or a dish of water (which they’ll sit in and absorb though their skin) and a toad house made of stones or an old broken flower pot.

I like the idea of a toad in every garden.

Barn Owl Potholders, Flying Home

June 19th, 2018

I keep thinking my Barn Owl Potholders should be able to fly to their new homes.  Wouldn’t that be nice!

I do still have a few Barn Owl Potholders for sale in my Etsy Shop.  You can see them and  buy them here. 

Donkeys, Our Ancient Companions

June 19th, 2018


I rubbed Lulu’s ears, the tips of my fingers turning black with the scabs from the insects bites and the tar-like crud that builds up there.  She slowly dropped her head, her lip quivering with pleasure.  I ran my hands down the sides of her face and under her chin, scratching and massaging the places that are hard for her to get to.  She shed tufts of hair  from her neck and back as I used my fingers to comb her.

We don’t ask much from our donkeys Lulu and Fanny.

They don’t have to walk on a halter or carry anyone or anything on their backs.  We really only want them to stay within the fenced pastures, get along with each other and the other animals on the farm and be gentle with the people who visit.

These are all things they seem to do naturally.

I never think of making Fanny and Lulu do any kind of work, although if they were trained to, I’m sure they’d enjoy it.  Work is in a donkeys blood.  They’ve been our Beasts of Burden for thousands of years.

I’ve always seen giving Fanny and Lulu the life we do,  as a kind of payback from our species to theirs.  They get to live a life of luxury for all the abuse donkeys have suffered at the hand of humans over the centuries.

And really, Fanny and Lulu do more than we ask of them.

They give to us the calm of their spirits.  A connection to nature that is healing.  A relationship that is timeless.  It’s comforting just knowing they are there.  Like horses, dogs and cats, their companionship is ancient.

Barn Owl Potholders For Sale

June 18th, 2018

Barn Owl Potholders

My Barn Owl Potholders are for sale in my Etsy Shop.

I have one potholder with two Barn Owls on it, that one is $30, the others are $25 each + shipping.

You can see them all and buy them in my Etsy Shop, just click here.


A Log Cabin And A Happy Wedding Potholder

June 18th, 2018

After designing my Barn Owl potholders last week, I looked down at the fabric scraps on my desk and couldn’t help but piece some of them together.

The five potholders above are what I came up with.

I finished sewing them today and now they’re up for sale in my Etsy Shop.

They’re $15 each + $7 shipping and you can see them and buy them by clicking here or on the Etsy Icon on the top of my blog.

Later tonight I’ll be putting my Barn Owl Potholder for sale in my Etsy Shop too.

Two Woodland Pillows

June 18th, 2018

Hedgehog Pillow

I made two pillows last week from the woodland fabric Nancy sent me.  I sold them both to regular readers and followers of my blog  who asked me to let them know when I had one available.

Woodland Pillow

Good Monday Morning From Bedlam Farm 6/18/18

June 18th, 2018

We never did get the sheep out into the pasture this morning.

I thought it was the heat and bugs (which are bad this morning) and that they’ve been grazing all night.  But Jon thinks it’s part of Red getting old, and losing his ability to move quickly.  He’s also almost blind in one eye which makes herding more difficult.

I imagine it’s a combination of all these things.